Soldier from Heaven (9781629021911) by Thomann Christine

Author:Thomann, Christine [Thomann, Christine]
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 9781629021911
Publisher: Tate Pub & Enterprises Llc
Published: 2013-07-15T16:00:00+00:00

“Pete, Pete, I need you. Please, come to me.”

I was in my bedroom calling for Pete and so frustrated that he wasn’t already there. He always seemed to be there when I needed him without me having to call him.

“Pete.”

“What’s wrong, baby?”

“Oh, Pete, I don’t know what to do. Jacob is hurting so badly. He is changing. He’s devastated by all of this, and I don’t know what to do.”

“You are already doing what you should be doing.”

“Oh really, that’s your answer. This is the help God’s sending me? ‘You are already doing what you should be doing?’ Are you kidding me? Jacob is damaged. What the hell is God letting happen to our son?”

I was screaming with anger and then quickly tried to contain myself so I wouldn’t wake Mary from her nap. I began pacing the floor in desperation. I was lost, and Pete wasn’t giving me much direction.

“Catherine, calm down. This is a normal reaction.”

“It’s not normal,” I cried without restraint. “What is normal about a twelve-year-old-boy losing his father? What is normal about him feeling like a loser because of it? What is normal about a once stubborn and outspoken young boy turning into a quiet, sulking kid? Normal was Jacob mouthing off because he was asserting independence while going through puberty. Remember? This is not his normal.”

“Catherine, this too shall pass. And down the road you will see that it is a normal part of his grieving. He will not be damaged. I promise you that. You are doing the right thing. You are there for him, and you are helping him through this. Be thankful that he is sharing his feelings with you. That is the most important part of coping. Be thankful he isn’t distancing himself from you and holding his feelings in. That is when true damage is done. He is sharing, and he had a mother ready to help. All of this is still fresh. It’s only been a few months. He got through summer great. You saw some happiness. Now he has to get through school. It’s another part of his life that he has to get used to doing without me. He hasn’t been to school since I’ve gone, and that’s why he’s like this. It will be a new experience. But he will come through as he did this summer. Progress is being made. Just keep being there for him. Everything will be fine.”

“Really? This is not—,” I said as I turned to see he had already gone. Pete gave his advice and was gone. I supposed that was a good thing. I didn’t have the chance to fire back at him and keep the argument going. Instead, I was left alone to reflect on his words. He was right. This too would pass. But it was just so hard and painful. I couldn’t wait to be over these feelings. I couldn’t bear to see my child hurting so much. I just wanted my old Jacob back. I wanted to hear the back talk.

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